the food store called me yesterday and apologized for not getting back to me on wednesday.
they said that i had an excellent chance, but there were 8 more interviews to do. I called them back this morning and they had 4 left, and they said they would be calling at the end of the day. I hope it goes well.
actually, i feel like i did very well, so if i DO NOT get this job, i am at a loss for what people expect at an interview.
I should know by tomorrow... at the very latest.
Friday, July 24, 2009
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
a new career?
today i had an interview at overwaitea foods to work at their new PriceSmart Foods Store opening September 23, 2009 at king edward village. i think the interview went rather well and i am excited about the opportunity. the interviewer asked the standard gammut of questions which i feel i handled thoughtfully and with tact.
they seemed genuinely interested, and i assured them that whatever they gave me to do, i could handle. they told me that they had a training program, even to work in payroll, which i think is an awesome skill to have! after they said this, i told them that if there was training involved i could absolutely do any job at the store. another thing i threw in was how the most important thing is building a brand and creating a brand loyalty through excellent customer service! I think that was an amazing interview!
fingers crossed!
i wonder what is next?
they seemed genuinely interested, and i assured them that whatever they gave me to do, i could handle. they told me that they had a training program, even to work in payroll, which i think is an awesome skill to have! after they said this, i told them that if there was training involved i could absolutely do any job at the store. another thing i threw in was how the most important thing is building a brand and creating a brand loyalty through excellent customer service! I think that was an amazing interview!
fingers crossed!
i wonder what is next?
Monday, July 20, 2009
the end of the innocence...
well folks, this is the email i replied.
i think this is the first time in my life i have ever had this kind of honesty in a relationship, and even though it didn't end successfully, the lessons it taught i will carry with me forever.
i will settle for nothing less.
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Im glad you sent this letter.
You are an amazing woman, so please don't ever forget that. I know you will find someone awesome, who is kind, and treats you well.
I do not hate you. I was just disappointed that i hadn't heard from you and was wondering if this was your subtle avoidance ritual. I kept telling myself that you would at the very least return my call or email at some point, and that this was likely a terrible case of not being at the right place at the right time. as time went on, and i couldn't get you at all, I started to worry about you and whether you were OK.
i agree that the time we spent together was wonderful, and i have no regrets. vegas will always have a special place in my heart. so many great memories that i will remember fondly, and I will always watch the wizard of oz with a sparkle in my eye. denny's, whore houses, the eiffel tower, 'ew York and beers in a can. the list is long my friend! :)
i think we both deserve a huge pat on the back for taking a shot at love, by ignoring the risks and letting the fun be the guide. that trip was entirely out of character for me, but there was something just leading me there. i knew i had to take a shot. i have come home to a much better space and a new frame of mind, something i have you to thank for. i feel that i have learned so much about myself from my trip to california, and i am glad that i got to share that experience with someone entirely different and new. i know what i want in a relationship, and what i am able to give to someone.
i am imagining how difficult it was for you to write this, and i certainly don't blame you for taking "the easy way out". this conversation would have been a little sad, (and you know i'm a crier), and you would have heard some hurt in my voice, but know that what you hear is coming strictly from my emotional being and not my logical being. you know how great you are, so of course to lose you would be really sad. but to never have met you would have been worse. because i got to have an awesome experience with someone really amazing. i choose to reflect only on the good times, because they really were our finest hours. footloose and fancy free (while remaining hydrated)!
i hope you don't think it is weird that i am replying to your email ~ i just felt bad about the way things went down, and wanted to make sure that you were OK. i am glad that you had the courage enough to write to me. i wrote this letter for two reasons... first, your email to me was kind, considerate, and deserving of a response. i don't want you to ever wonder if i took it terribly and hated you forever. this is not the case. from time to time i may just email you (don't worry, i'm not a spammer), or send you a postcard from somewhere. second, i want you to know that i am not sad, hurt, or mad in any way, shape, or form. from start to finish, this is by far the most "adult" relationship i've ever had (in 33 years!!). it felt really good to be honest and not be afraid to say things to you. so for that i am thankful.
i learned so much, and you still RULE (don't forget that)
jen
ps: so sorry, but you might be getting mail for some time still... i think the last one i sent was this past friday!!! i told you, i am an excellent postcard sender!
i think this is the first time in my life i have ever had this kind of honesty in a relationship, and even though it didn't end successfully, the lessons it taught i will carry with me forever.
i will settle for nothing less.
--------------------------------------
Im glad you sent this letter.
You are an amazing woman, so please don't ever forget that. I know you will find someone awesome, who is kind, and treats you well.
I do not hate you. I was just disappointed that i hadn't heard from you and was wondering if this was your subtle avoidance ritual. I kept telling myself that you would at the very least return my call or email at some point, and that this was likely a terrible case of not being at the right place at the right time. as time went on, and i couldn't get you at all, I started to worry about you and whether you were OK.
i agree that the time we spent together was wonderful, and i have no regrets. vegas will always have a special place in my heart. so many great memories that i will remember fondly, and I will always watch the wizard of oz with a sparkle in my eye. denny's, whore houses, the eiffel tower, 'ew York and beers in a can. the list is long my friend! :)
i think we both deserve a huge pat on the back for taking a shot at love, by ignoring the risks and letting the fun be the guide. that trip was entirely out of character for me, but there was something just leading me there. i knew i had to take a shot. i have come home to a much better space and a new frame of mind, something i have you to thank for. i feel that i have learned so much about myself from my trip to california, and i am glad that i got to share that experience with someone entirely different and new. i know what i want in a relationship, and what i am able to give to someone.
i am imagining how difficult it was for you to write this, and i certainly don't blame you for taking "the easy way out". this conversation would have been a little sad, (and you know i'm a crier), and you would have heard some hurt in my voice, but know that what you hear is coming strictly from my emotional being and not my logical being. you know how great you are, so of course to lose you would be really sad. but to never have met you would have been worse. because i got to have an awesome experience with someone really amazing. i choose to reflect only on the good times, because they really were our finest hours. footloose and fancy free (while remaining hydrated)!
i hope you don't think it is weird that i am replying to your email ~ i just felt bad about the way things went down, and wanted to make sure that you were OK. i am glad that you had the courage enough to write to me. i wrote this letter for two reasons... first, your email to me was kind, considerate, and deserving of a response. i don't want you to ever wonder if i took it terribly and hated you forever. this is not the case. from time to time i may just email you (don't worry, i'm not a spammer), or send you a postcard from somewhere. second, i want you to know that i am not sad, hurt, or mad in any way, shape, or form. from start to finish, this is by far the most "adult" relationship i've ever had (in 33 years!!). it felt really good to be honest and not be afraid to say things to you. so for that i am thankful.
i learned so much, and you still RULE (don't forget that)
jen
ps: so sorry, but you might be getting mail for some time still... i think the last one i sent was this past friday!!! i told you, i am an excellent postcard sender!
the return email...
I am sorry it's taken me so long to get back to you. You didn't blow anything, but the more hectic my life gets, I think it's only fair to stop seeing you. I can't devote enough time or attention to you, and I'm not even sure at this point when or if I will have the time or money to get away to visit or to have a visitor here.
You haven't done anything wrong, but I don't want you to spend all this time and attention on me when I can't do the same for you. You have been kind enough to keep asking for less and less from me, but at this point in my life, I just don't have time to devote to a relationship and you deserve someone who can appreciate all the sweet attention you have to offer.
I am sorry for hurting you, if I have. The time we spent together was wonderful. But, every day that I keep you waiting for a phone call or an email, I feel guiltier. Every time I open the mailbox and have three or four pieces of mail and haven't sent you even one, I feel worse. You are a great woman and have a lot to offer someone who will treat you right, but I can't be that person right now.
I still have some feelings for my ex I need to work out. I have my job, all the travel, an apartment to set up on my own, and friends and family obligations too. Adding another obligation to the mix when I can't make you a priority is not fair to you. You will find someone some day who can return your undivided attention, but I can't be that person.
I understand if you never want to see or hear from me again. And I'm not going to make some polite gesture that maybe another time would be better or leave you with a "maybe one day." I want you to find happiness and even love. But I don't want to lead you on and pretend that I anticipate my life getting any less complicated any time soon. Thank you for showing me what I deserve in a relationship when I am ready for one some day. But I can't be there for you, so I have to let you go.
Our time together was very special. I will send Ernie back to you, because I know he has sentimental value. And thank you for showing me what I deserve when the time is right. Now is not the time. I feel bad sending you this in an email, but honestly, I am too chicken to hear the hurt in your voice if I hurt you. I'm not proud of it, but I am. I am completely taking the wimpy way out here, so maybe that will make it easier for you to hate me instead of be sad. I am not feeling like an amazing person right now for doing this, but it's only fair to you.
Please save your love and time and attention for someone who can give you the same back. I am not that woman.
You haven't done anything wrong, but I don't want you to spend all this time and attention on me when I can't do the same for you. You have been kind enough to keep asking for less and less from me, but at this point in my life, I just don't have time to devote to a relationship and you deserve someone who can appreciate all the sweet attention you have to offer.
I am sorry for hurting you, if I have. The time we spent together was wonderful. But, every day that I keep you waiting for a phone call or an email, I feel guiltier. Every time I open the mailbox and have three or four pieces of mail and haven't sent you even one, I feel worse. You are a great woman and have a lot to offer someone who will treat you right, but I can't be that person right now.
I still have some feelings for my ex I need to work out. I have my job, all the travel, an apartment to set up on my own, and friends and family obligations too. Adding another obligation to the mix when I can't make you a priority is not fair to you. You will find someone some day who can return your undivided attention, but I can't be that person.
I understand if you never want to see or hear from me again. And I'm not going to make some polite gesture that maybe another time would be better or leave you with a "maybe one day." I want you to find happiness and even love. But I don't want to lead you on and pretend that I anticipate my life getting any less complicated any time soon. Thank you for showing me what I deserve in a relationship when I am ready for one some day. But I can't be there for you, so I have to let you go.
Our time together was very special. I will send Ernie back to you, because I know he has sentimental value. And thank you for showing me what I deserve when the time is right. Now is not the time. I feel bad sending you this in an email, but honestly, I am too chicken to hear the hurt in your voice if I hurt you. I'm not proud of it, but I am. I am completely taking the wimpy way out here, so maybe that will make it easier for you to hate me instead of be sad. I am not feeling like an amazing person right now for doing this, but it's only fair to you.
Please save your love and time and attention for someone who can give you the same back. I am not that woman.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
a very big state of maybes and whatnots
what happens when you try to contact someone and you can not get ahold of them?
you send email, text messages, and even phone calls, but nothing gets answered or returned?
what, what then?
i guess i know the answer, i just wish she would have AT LEAST told me in person.
you send email, text messages, and even phone calls, but nothing gets answered or returned?
what, what then?
i guess i know the answer, i just wish she would have AT LEAST told me in person.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
worthy....
what does it take to be worthy of love these days?
a few random notes as this is something i have been thinking about recently.
a long time ago when i was starting to date, i had very specific ideas about what that looked like in my head. flowers, candies, movies, cuddles, joint crossword puzzles, being together. i wish, in retrospect, that it were as simple as this. relationships are hard, and the ones I have had are no exception.
my first real relationship started like most others at that age, began at a college bar. we met, we drank, we made-out in the back of my car! this relationship, and my introduction to the adult dating beast, had high points and low points and eventually ended. when you are 18 i guess you have no real control over how things will change over the course of your life, where you will be in the next 10 years ect. looking back over the past 10 years, i have done things that i would have never imagined doing, including 6 years at university, lotsa travelling all over the world, working in korea, living in vancouver, having NO career.
over the past 10 years, i have really started to learn who i am and what i want out of life. but, the past 2 years have been the steepest part of this journey, which has challenged me to re think the things i may have bought into only years before.
In the fall of 2005, while working in korea i met someone. now i have met lots of people in korea but this was someone who i really adored. they were fun, witty, smart, enjoyed a good conversation (and even crossword puzzles). It was like winning the lottery. we spent a lot of time in korea seeing the sights, hanging out, and generally having an awesome time. in the summer of 2006, that love left me, and promised that we could survive the distance that was put between us by thousands of miles and an ocean.
i should stop and point out here that I am a believer in love.
it was easy at first, the emails and the phone calls, the letters and packages. for about 4 months this situation was great, but then ... the call came. breaking up... too much distance... too far.... no physical contact.... ugh. I really didnt want to hear those words but being that this was december and I still has a full 6 months left on my contract, what could I do? i agreed that it was for the best, and we left it at that... the next day i went to work, and my boss told me that if i wanted to because the school year starts in march, i could actually get out of my contract on Feb 28th, and still get my free airfare home. I called to inform, and the relationship was back on. I readied myself for vancouver (a place i had not even thought about living in) where i would be moving to, all for love, in about 7 weeks.
those 7 weeks flew by so fast... excitement, packing, selling stuff, sightseeing the rest of seoul, dinners with friends... so little time. then i arrived, 2 bags, 1 guitar, & one cat at vancouver international airport.
i often think about how my life would have been if i would have just let it go, stayed in korea and finished my contract. where would i be right now? still ESLing around the world, home on the east coast working in a call centre, or maybe i would have come to vancouver anyhow... who knows, and that is the adventure of life...
fast forward to a few months ago: a broken-hearted girl decides to take control of her life, packs up some gear, cashed out the student loans and heads to California. it turns out, this trip actually saved my life. for quite some time after the end of that relationship i was spun into this terrible depression, had terrible thoughts of finding a way to end it all. after a lot of thought about what to do, i decided i needed a break, the company of some good friends and a readjusted attitude. the time i spent out of the city helped to heal me and certainly changed my outlook... then it happened, just when i wasn't looking for it.. LOVE!
i met a someone, we hung out - a lot.... we spent 3 awesome days in SF and then a further 3 days in Las Vegas. we parted ways at the airport, with promises to keep in touch, to visit each other when we have time, and to communicate often. We agreed to a set of rules for ourselves which i will relay here:
- we pinky swore not to put up with crap
- honesty, communication, asking questions when we have them, talking when we are scared
- it's ok to cry sometimes and I will always listen
- all I expect of you is to be kind and to be you. Period. You are more than I could ever have hoped for, exactly as you are.
- it can be easy
- we both deserve to be this happy
i like her, but i wonder if she still likes me, or if the excitement of a trip and the city and life gave the placebo effect and that in actuality, "she's just not that into me"
a few random notes as this is something i have been thinking about recently.
a long time ago when i was starting to date, i had very specific ideas about what that looked like in my head. flowers, candies, movies, cuddles, joint crossword puzzles, being together. i wish, in retrospect, that it were as simple as this. relationships are hard, and the ones I have had are no exception.
my first real relationship started like most others at that age, began at a college bar. we met, we drank, we made-out in the back of my car! this relationship, and my introduction to the adult dating beast, had high points and low points and eventually ended. when you are 18 i guess you have no real control over how things will change over the course of your life, where you will be in the next 10 years ect. looking back over the past 10 years, i have done things that i would have never imagined doing, including 6 years at university, lotsa travelling all over the world, working in korea, living in vancouver, having NO career.
over the past 10 years, i have really started to learn who i am and what i want out of life. but, the past 2 years have been the steepest part of this journey, which has challenged me to re think the things i may have bought into only years before.
In the fall of 2005, while working in korea i met someone. now i have met lots of people in korea but this was someone who i really adored. they were fun, witty, smart, enjoyed a good conversation (and even crossword puzzles). It was like winning the lottery. we spent a lot of time in korea seeing the sights, hanging out, and generally having an awesome time. in the summer of 2006, that love left me, and promised that we could survive the distance that was put between us by thousands of miles and an ocean.
i should stop and point out here that I am a believer in love.
it was easy at first, the emails and the phone calls, the letters and packages. for about 4 months this situation was great, but then ... the call came. breaking up... too much distance... too far.... no physical contact.... ugh. I really didnt want to hear those words but being that this was december and I still has a full 6 months left on my contract, what could I do? i agreed that it was for the best, and we left it at that... the next day i went to work, and my boss told me that if i wanted to because the school year starts in march, i could actually get out of my contract on Feb 28th, and still get my free airfare home. I called to inform, and the relationship was back on. I readied myself for vancouver (a place i had not even thought about living in) where i would be moving to, all for love, in about 7 weeks.
those 7 weeks flew by so fast... excitement, packing, selling stuff, sightseeing the rest of seoul, dinners with friends... so little time. then i arrived, 2 bags, 1 guitar, & one cat at vancouver international airport.
i often think about how my life would have been if i would have just let it go, stayed in korea and finished my contract. where would i be right now? still ESLing around the world, home on the east coast working in a call centre, or maybe i would have come to vancouver anyhow... who knows, and that is the adventure of life...
fast forward to a few months ago: a broken-hearted girl decides to take control of her life, packs up some gear, cashed out the student loans and heads to California. it turns out, this trip actually saved my life. for quite some time after the end of that relationship i was spun into this terrible depression, had terrible thoughts of finding a way to end it all. after a lot of thought about what to do, i decided i needed a break, the company of some good friends and a readjusted attitude. the time i spent out of the city helped to heal me and certainly changed my outlook... then it happened, just when i wasn't looking for it.. LOVE!
i met a someone, we hung out - a lot.... we spent 3 awesome days in SF and then a further 3 days in Las Vegas. we parted ways at the airport, with promises to keep in touch, to visit each other when we have time, and to communicate often. We agreed to a set of rules for ourselves which i will relay here:
- we pinky swore not to put up with crap
- honesty, communication, asking questions when we have them, talking when we are scared
- it's ok to cry sometimes and I will always listen
- all I expect of you is to be kind and to be you. Period. You are more than I could ever have hoped for, exactly as you are.
- it can be easy
- we both deserve to be this happy
i like her, but i wonder if she still likes me, or if the excitement of a trip and the city and life gave the placebo effect and that in actuality, "she's just not that into me"
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